i was lying in bed, trying to surround myself
with pleasant thoughts,
enough to ease myself into
the menacing new day.
when i heard a knock on the door
i was alarmed –
who would disturb me like this?
i haphazardly threw on some clothes
to find on my front steps
a man who owed me money
come back to make things right.
he offered to do work for me in the spring
i stood in a daze, trying to comprehend
he spoke of geese and irish border collies
he would start fresh, a completely new life
why not indeed.
why must i be the victim, the disappointment, the losing bid
but for the toss of a coin
and everything changes.